Of the
variations of loss mankind faces, memory is one of the hardest. Less physically and more existentially
painful, memory deprivation is tantamount to losing one’s self; without the
past to inform identity in the present, the mind can find itself in a
stranger’s body. Alzheimer’s an extreme,
there are subtler variations of memory loss which nevertheless smear the
personal conception of self across a subjective peep show of the remembered
past. Entering this gulf of equivocated
identity is Gene Wolfe’s brilliant 1986 novel Soldier of the Mist. The
story of a soldier in ancient Greece suffering anterograde amnesia (the
inability to form long term memories), the world through his eyes appears
unstable and off-putting. But as time
moves on, the reader realizes the man’s condition is not as far removed from a
healthy mind’s perspective of memory and the past as it would seem.
Writing an
account of his day on a scroll before going to sleep and encountering a scroll
with the words “Read This” in the morning, Latro the soldier learns and
relearns anew every day who he is, long term memory gone. Struck on the head in battle, he retains hazy
memories of his youth and language skills, but little else. Name and home, for example, are a
mystery. Life literally taken day to
day, instinct and the will of others guide his life. On the losing side of the battle, he begins Soldier of the Mist a slave to the
victors. Prized by them, he is allowed to befriend an Ethiopian and a poet, and
soon comes into a friendship with a young slave girl—she the biggest help in
retaining his notion of self. After the
battle a divine intervention sets him on a group pilgrimage to the Shining
Mother. The circumstances of life and the condition of his memory quickly shift
the focus, however. His goals evolving
with each stop on the map, it’s meeting the necromancer Eurykles that effects
the most change. Witnessing the
resurrection of a corpse in a cemetery one evening, Latro’s perception of the
gods, the living, and everything between intertwine to lead him closer to who
he is. Trouble is, he may never
remember.


