Documenting some of them himself (in a journal later
published as an exegesis), the issues
Philip K. Dick was dealing with in his personal life are known. Hallucinations to transcendental visions,
suicidal thoughts to drug use, marital troubles to metaphysical doubts, these
elements were reflected in Dick’s fiction in direct and indirect form. But they were always integrated in abstract, fictional
fashion that made the story to hand, unique. That is, until 1981’s V.A.L.I.S.
The closest Dick got to autobiography in his fiction, VALIS is the personal and spiritual
journey of Horselover Fat (‘Philip Dick’ if Greek is used to translate the
first name and German the last), told through the eyes of his friend, the writer
Philip Dick. Lost in life at the start
of the novel, Fat is dealing with a broken marriage, a suicidal friend, and
lack of spiritual conviction regarding the reality of reality. Events triggered when the friend eventually
kills herself, Fat falls into a downward spiral. Believing he is mad, Fat shares some of his
ideas with his friends Philip and Ken, and starts keeping a journal of his
thoughts on metaphysics and religion, particularly his belief that he was
contacted by an alien god-mind in the form of a strange pink light. In and out of mental institutions, Fat remains
lost in life, that is until he learns he may not be the only one who has seen a
pink light.









